been ages!

Gotta be too many to write...been so long I have never been write anything here...will do will do will do...later on when the time coming I will write any story that would be good for me!

the bads...

Been such a long period I have never been write anything here...I guess been few bad things happen to me and yeah some of the good too...

Losing my date as he is an asshole...and I'm thanking God for it...long story and I kinda losing interest to write here...he is way cheap!

I will certainly come back again and write things soon...good stuff and good stuff and good stuff!!!

pre the big 35, the beginning of a good life...

Why it is again so important celebrating my own birthday? Is it because now even more important because of those big number? Or is it because he is canceling his trip to Bkk? Perhaps all those reasons...perhaps that I do need to celebrate it...

I am now in the middle of this concrete city called the city of angels or in the land of smiles...and all of sudden everything becoming so much moodier...I hate for being moody in this great place where you can have party all night...or perhaps party is not the thing that I really want...perhaps what I want is just two of us celebrating and blowing candle on those cute cupcake...oh here I go again...too much Carrie in the mind...

I hate doing the plan B...I want just stick to plan A...but it seems it is impossible for you to do it...another plan B must be accomplished...tonight perhaps I wanna go party and forget about the birthday itself...just go get drinks and have fun with it!

journey to the west...saigon part three

DOs & DON'Ts

Stay around District One...better stay around those cool area of Notre Dame or Opera House...best area to walk around

If you wanna buy something at the street vendor, do ask first about the price, don't just eat, drink or grab thing, otherwise they will charge you like crazy

If you wanna get taxi get VINASUN or MAI LINH taxi...others they can rob you as they will put a very very high price like what I had...at the airport please ask for MAI LINH or VINASUN

Walk around and getting lost in some alleys...you will find things that even more interesting such as cool cafes and boutiques!

Pho 2000...is good!

Au Parc Cafe if you wanna taste those Parisy feeling in the middle of the heat of Saigon...

Please visit L'Usine, to feel this quirky air...and the coolness of those young people of Saigon

Hochiminh Art Museum just awesome!

journey to the west...saigon part two

My day two of walking around the city ended at this famous cafe called Pho 2000...why this place so famous while you will see this actually a humble and ordinary place? Well Bill Clinton ate here...perhaps I was sitting at a chair he used to sit when he was eating this pho hahahaha....but indeed the pho sooo delicioso...so good...

Walking around this city seems like fun yet tiring...and scary as the crazy motorbikes are everywhere and yeap I saw an accident but it seems all just like normal, like it's in their daily basis life of getting hit, fell off and so fort from the motorbike hahahaha....

Last days usually the day you found many great things that you have been looking for on your first days of the journey...such as those cool cafes I read on the blog, books, magazines....and I felt like useless and hopeless as you are running out of time and money to spend :)

Some of the places that I found is L'Apotiquaire, it is the well known french day spa near the Ben Tanh Market...and this place called Princess & The Pea a way of strange way to enjoy the coffee and tea in this such out of nowhere shop house, dark, and you need to take off your shoes if you wanna hang around the place...strangely many people coming and I was like stupid guy asking them for their menu before I realize that you need a company to hang around this place otherwise you will look odd....

Bitter Sweet Coffee Shop...cute and seems like a nice cafe in the corner of this street near again Ben Tanh Market....

Last day in this city, I went to see the War Remnants Museum, a museum dedicated to the bitter of Viet Nam war in the late 50s up to 70s...those pictures speaks zillions of words...all sad, scary, full with hopes...mixed into one...this place such a place for you to learn how stupid it is the war, any war in any way....

What I have learned from this city, if you walk through this city...you need to get lost in some alleys to find this cool places...get surprise by what you found...such as An Bistro, KEP Vietnamese Resto, Amber Room the lounge bar...

Paris Deli, my last stop of this cafe hunting...i like the place only the cheese cake not so good...but I do love the area...so nice and quiet...

Well I almost done really with the city at that afternoon...I really enjoyed walking around the Notre Dame, Opera House, People's Committee Building, Rex Hotel, Hotel Continental Saigon, Presidential Palace...and there was a time when I was just sitting there just under the statue of this Virgin Mary and looked at this grand Notre Dame while you are listening to the choir singing prayers in the mass at this great church...oh so romantic...

journey to the west...saigon part one

Sitting at one of the corner of this lovely cafe called Au Parc just near the Notre Dame de Saigon...I am so happy today as I finally found this place...and this place right exactly what's in the mind...

This is what so called my birthday journey...making a first stop in Saigon...this is the longest solo trip, five days...four nights...solo...
First day of my exploration was the iconic parts of Saigon, those Ben Tanh Market and so on and so on....glad to found this old man called Mr. Dung, he is such a genuine and knows everything that I need for my curiosity of old buildings...yeap he is a motor taxi driver I found just right out side of the market, smiled, showing off his tiny pocket book filled with opinion about him from his former clienteles :-) voila!!

He was showing me around this beautiful old houses, buildings, shop houses and temples, Cholon the China Town...from the Opera House to People's Committee to Post Office to HCMC Art Museum to all beautifully crafted buildings...again I was smitten!

Opera House...like most of the former capital of European colonial city have this beautiful building, Saigon not to mention also has it...in terms of scale this opera house not so big but it's beautiful and stand out in this luxury area of Saigon...very well maintained...I went here twice actually!

People's Committee Building, another french grandeur...in one of the most luxury area in Saigon side by side with Opera House and array of this high end brands...yeah yeah yeah...Chanel, Cartier, Burberry, Chloe etc etc...Chanel got a big place here...bet that is the flagship!

Another very interesting building is the Central Post Office, oh soooo nice....big and grand, the tiles, the facade, those old maps on the wall and those giant and nice picture of the founding father of the country HoChiMinh all so nice!

And Mr. Dung also taking me to this wonderful Chinese temple built in 1740, breathtakingly belle...old, quiet, just superb...lastly he was taking me for a lunch at the Chinese Traditional Market...for a yummy Nasi Ayam!

I found many old tiles here in Saigon...once I found it I am such a collector now...every single and different interesting tiles I snap...this is like when I was in Paris when I found those Space Invader icons all over Paris....I am soo addicted to it :-)

L'USINE...a brilliant and cool yet quirky shop...I found this shop as I was walking around this cool area and I was got dazzled with this 1930s typo and those clothes...I walked around and seeing this art arcade leading to some old bit creepy stairs and there you go a big signage leading to the second floor...I was so excited...I saw those giant glass doors and windows...right exactly and old building...when I entered the shop/cafe...youngsters most of the clientele were cool...and yes cute cupcakes, quirky stuff, clothes, old goodies, all and all...I just love this shop....bought book about Saigon here, ate their cupcake, the vanilla...so delicioso!

Oh I know I was soo bored as I walking around this city alone...on the 3rd day which is today I am seems gaining my excitement as I visited this HCMC Art Museum...goodness I got smitten by the charms of the building and the collection...the building just amazing...the ornaments, the 1st elevator to be existed in Saigon, the tiles, the stairs, the windows, pillars...gosh this building just beautiful without overly grandeur...the building itself used to be a townhouse owned by this great family from China who made their marks in this city as one of the most celebrated businessmen...you can still see who is living in which floor...and you also still seeing this family signature in every doors!

This Art Museum has the greatest collection of modern art era of Saigon...you may see great collection of paintings, sculptures and all...galleries not only one but more than three galleries...

Lastly for today...I am visiting this boring Presidential Palace...

Now I am sitting here at this cute cafe called Au Parc overlooking to the parc near the Notre Dame!

What a nice afternoon!

the meeting number three

The meeting number three happened exactly few days away...and yet there was still nothing going on...those tids & bits those moment of truth...I have no idea now, until when someone finally enough to say those four letter word? Takes months? 

I guess I have to wait till next meeting...wait till all blurry and all the sparks gone? Oh no...I want to keep those sparks till time is right...

the meeting number two

I was in KL last weekend, after so many years I have never been visiting the city...here I go again visiting this lame city...ooops sorry for the one who loves the city :) 

This time my visit for a good cause, a good purpose in the meeting of my future man...

I arrived around 4 PM and hoping I will right away see his smiley face when he saw me...but forget about that moment as he was late to picked me up...30 minutes or more than that...but the smile back at me as soon as I saw his face...he was wearing t-shirt with baby blue flat front and cap...the cap that I saw when we were met the other day at Bali Joe...still he has this kind man smile...we hugged then off to city centre...

I am happy to meet him again...happy because I can have more time to know him better...happy because now I have reason to visit this lame city called KL...:) 

The agenda kinda tight...first night planned to visit my friend Adri with his partner somewhere in Cheras but then canceled as miscommunication between us...but then we decided to have lunch on Saturday at his place...

Anyway, Saturday night such a big night because he arranged to have dinner with his bunch of closest friends...this was such the moment of truth about him finding me...all his good friends...all married couple and all straight...and all asking me how did we meet and what do I do in Bali...this is kinda test that if they approved you then you may date him....

those ugly spirits!

“When a relationship dies do we ever really give up the ghost or are we forever haunted by the spirits of relationships past.” - Carrie Bradshaw

I am now in the middle of what-so-called getting close with someone...we are seems really connected and very much comfortable to each other...I feel like ready to take off for another what-so-called-relationship...I am telling myself that, if this is going to be good and if this is going to be my true relationship then be it...if no then I have no idea to deal with this un-solve mystery of single all the time :)

There you go, after an intense call from my new beau from KL, then suddenly my ex in Paris sent me a message thru my facebook...always been same script only different moment...he came to me after I guess I met someone that I really like...

Damn you are right Miss Bradshaw...those ugly spirits from your past will always haunting you where ever you go!

the one

Perhaps he is the one?

the arrivals & the departures, the lost & the found

Perhaps indeed how people meet can be so strange, weird, quirky or unpredictable...maybe there is no such thing like the right time or the right moment in meeting someone in your life...maybe that's what we call a mysterious way, a way that perhaps I don't like...but yeah it happened at least to me.

I guess I can consider I met him in a mysterious way, the way that perhaps I don't like it...but it feels so good when I re-think about it...re-think about how I met in a strange, unpretentious way...I really want to tell the details here how I met him...but this is too much, too much as I feel very happy...this is the feeling that perhaps gone long before...

Mon Dieu, please keep it this way...the way that I prefer...the way that makes me feels like I am up in the air like him now...he is up in the air...

I think I like him so much...

springy!

Spring indeed supposed to be something juicy and yeap fresh...here are some ideas for my Spring - Summer collection from cover of magazines....

in the heat of the day

Damn, today just perfectly HOT...I am melting just like a popsicle!!!

all those feeling....

Hmmmm...lately I am hating myself for being so fragile...so empty and gloomier...I might be laughing all the time but deep down I feel like "heiy I miss all those great moment when I have someone that I can think of or well saying those typical words...I miss you...How are you doing Babe? We talk again next weekend, Babe?"...

Well, it seems the more I think about it the less I can have a chance to finally feel it...c'est domage!

All blurry now, all seems like lost...lost like where the fuck I have to find him? See, now I am using those F word...means I am getting to those stage...stage of getting lost in wanting something hahaha...

Few days ago I went to meet best friends at Bali Joe and it has been such a long time I feel kinda not wanting to go to bars...and when I was there what I felt was like...hummm bored, or suddenly I hear no sounds just busy with thoughts....hmmhh typical of too long to be alone..hahahaha

Weekend again...I feel so happy as I can off from work stuff, which also lately I feel so fuckin' bored with the routine at work...thinking to go to Ubud...or just finding some quiet place to work on something....damn I do really have to move on and keep walking...this time perhaps a bit running!

Whoever you are who is probably my other-half...I am sure you will be very happy to finally found me...

Have a great weekend!

Goes Gaga!

This is very interesting yet amazed me...as I just knew that one of the dress from Indonesian designer wore by Lady Gaga on Harper's Bazaar US...I am very proud of you Tex Saverio...Here is the Cover also the Lady Gaga's fashion spread on the It issue (see picture number two)...Hail Indonesian Fashion Designer!

une nuit avec le thé à la vanille

A night with vanilla tea and a mind full with thoughts...

pake baju apa ya?

Always a second to disaster when I have to attend the event...any event in the world...everything will be in a rush...till finally I didn't go to the event as..."PAKE BAJU APA YA?" shooootttt!!!

places that i like and you might also like it...NOT FOR SALE

Poof...you will be amazed by this scene...it was then, couple months ago...we went to Ubud in search for enlightenment a.k.a getting away from Seminyak or Kuta hahaha...

We were driving non-stop from Seminyak to Ubud area...singing, screaming, and yeap amazed, amazed by those greeny hills, lands, rice fields...oh damn this is why I love Ubud...

Poof we were amazed by this GIANT signage made from bamboo right on this very green rice fields...so beautiful...enjoy it...(boni said...shhhh never ever tell anybody where exactly this place LOL)

places that i like and you might also like it...press ban cafe

A friend yahoo-ed me at that time...he was convinced me that I should go to this place called Press Ban Cafe in Oberoi Street Seminyak area as the waiter sooo cute...here I go only few stroll away from where I was I finally got to this cute vintage place called Press Ban Cafe...

They sell stuff like from 70's sometimes from 60's stuff like those flower generation have...those colorful shirts, those bohemian dresses and blouses and yeah those cute lil stuff for the accessories...and the good thing also they sell coffees, and some italian light meals...

Anyway, this cute guy named Komang, indeed he is adorable and I kinda feel like....humm this is the place I should go when I start to wander and need to stop at one point in Seminyak area...

Take a look at this shop, really nice for a cozy hangout to have this ginger coffee or italian biscuit :-)

 

seeing the boy that i like

I always have this favorite boy wherever I go ever since I was in junior high I guess LOL...can't remember any but I do now have several places I consider have cute boy that I like so much LOL

I am now sitting at this cafe in the corner of Oberoi Street called Press Ban Cafe...a vintage shop and of course selling vintage stuff what else :) the good thing about this cafe is one bol named Komang...he is just cute and yeap he is balinese...

I have this silly dream about him that love to have him as my boyfriend...LOL

Oh well today he is even cuter than ever...and he is seems gaining more muscle...yummm...there you go looks like I am now having a silly thought...LOL

"we're just woke up"

I wonder how it is a good life if almost everyday or perhaps everyday in my life if I woke up in the morning I can see my boyfriend just there, right there beside me...must be beautiful...well for now it's only in the thought...

Over a conversation thru WhatsApp : "We're just woke up" 

From a best friend in KL...

making a stop...

In the middle of the heat...I am making stop just to feed my lil bit hungry stomach...I went to this fabric shops and just bought yards of fabrics for the sample...

I just talked to my best friend's boyfriend an hour ago and they are now also at their workshop working on their brand called RockInc...which pretty much gaining some exposure in the capital...oh damn I wish I can do it not just alone...but like them...so cute to hear they were fighting over the fabrics for their label...made me wonder for a few minutes, it would be much easier and funner if I can build my label with the one I like and love...a boyfriend...

Oh my spaghetti will be done soon...I must eat and stop wondering around about the boyfriend.... :D

 

the Monday

Here I go again, it is Monday morning at the office sitting in front of this un-cool screen of my PC try to ignite everything in the mind and start to work...but what is happening now is I am reading my Travel + Leisure Magazine bought couple weeks ago and feeling so much joy as I am reading the Saigon's part and I found a blog by a girl who used to live in Saigon which also I can use it for my travel guide...well I am practically ready and set to visit those chic city.

Hail ANNA!

I love Anna Wintour as I think she is one of the most powerful woman in fashion industry...here VOGUE editrix Anna Wintour graces the front cover of WSJ newest edition...

mr.populair & populaire

I just wanna say a hell lot of good lucks on my labels...and yeap bismillah :)

it won't be counted!

Lately those words...the words or yeah maybe the sentences that I made several days or week ago keep echoing in the mind...

"If you talk the same things, listening to the same music, great talks and great times doesn't mean I want to meet you again!"

Still a mystery for me the way those chemistry treated me or yeah us...those cuteness, smartness, or perhaps those cute quirkiness doesn't mean anything for them...and yet we are still (read : i am still) QUESTIONING!

Am I revealing too much? Am I too smart? Did I freak them out? Or those things just thought that can make me easier to the fact that..."He is just not that into you!"

Ah dammit, dammit and dammit!

My bestfriend always feel threatened by those "alley cat" which I always remind him that, don't you ever think about them anyway they choose some old not so rich guy LOL...but again I am asking to myself...I always deal with some great men...but still indeed they prefer someone that what I think "he supposed to picked me over him, you stupid bastard!" LOL

I am officially tired of it...of unsolved mystery of how people met other people, how people can easily to get the replacement and how people can really really easily to meet other people (again I just made a repetition).

 

the connection

I guess we are no longer connected to each other...I am trying to find the socket, trying to make those connection again...but I guess there is nothing anymore...nothing is left between us...

 

a good man

Somehow i do have to letting go...all the good and the bad memories and never look back...indeed sad but it's been way too much...i'm way too good...a damn good man...i don't wanna dream about you anymore...

Oh God, lately I'm so tired of being broken hearted...I used to be just don't care...but yeah lately I'm so weak...needy, and whiney...

I don't wanna be alone too long...

living in la la land...

People often to think that if you live in bali, means you can really easy to find Mr.Big...I'll tell you something guys...it is damn so hard to find one...there is actually none...or perhaps something like waiting for a very handsome star falling from the sky in the breezy afternoon (hmmm well that's kinda too much hahahaha), but that's the fact actually....

Good man means nothing here on la la land...really means nothing...

Perhaps I gotta be a bad bad gal... :)

Here what I did for the last couple of years, work, holiday, broken hearted two times...then really nothing...I kinda didn't look for the one...but lately I feel damn so bored for being alone or broken hearted in this la la land...all craps, all disappointing...

Let me count by the names who made me broken hearted...hmm well...matthew campbel, maximillian stephan smith, olivier belle, then this way good to be true guy named David (I have no idea his last name!)...

There you go...all just crappy...

Ah just give me one...the good one...

give me just one...the right one, the good one

Lately I am very tire of being alone...feel so sad..and empty...almost 35 but still I am waiting for the one to finally I can call it home...a home of my heart...Mon Dieu, if only I have chances to fall in love again and finally found that one..please be gentle to my heart...I don't wanna be a broken-hearted guy again...I just wanna finally say "It's a wrap!"

Mon Dieu, I feel so weary lately...it's just like I'm a dead man walking around this cool streets, wondering around and nothing in my head...

I probably have no more words to say...or perhaps I should have ever think about it...but lately I keep thinking of this loneliness...about how I want him...I want someone just there right next to me...

I want to fall in love again...head over heels...

Dolce et Gabbana Spring Summer 2011 Ad

J'adore...j'adore...j'adore!

 

paperworks

Huuuufffttt....too many trainings lately..I need to get out of here...it's a boredom...no fun at all...4 weeks in a row only trainings...darn!

the newest kembang desa

Cute,pout,spike..very young...I mean very very you...he's only 18 years old...and he is a gogo boy at Bali Joe the most sought after gay bar in bali...LOL

D & G Spring Summer 2011 Ad

It's the Spring Summer 2011 Ad Campaign...love the warm feeling of those light, the easy breezy pose also the freshest boys around...

newest cover magazines!

Here are the newest cover of fashion magazines...the coolest of the coolest...smell like spring time!

From the lovely newlywed Lara Stone for Paris VOGUE to Nicole Kidman for Haper's Bazaar US to my dearest husband Mr. Ford for Interview Magazine...all in the freshest springy mood!