I guess, human's heart made of steel, no matter how many times you are brokenhearted you will stand up walk and find new journey to fall in love again, that's including me I guess...but lately no matter how hard (or maybe not harder enough)I tried to fall of let's say to find a new guy the road seems harder than before...some says I am getting more and more picky...but perhaps yes...or perhaps like what I said to all my friends..."Do I have choices?"
Last night I had a quick conversation with a friend of mine that he tried to convince me that who ever now standing in front of you or liking you no matter how he is not your type or perhaps just bit far from your type than I need to reconcile with my criteria...oh gosh that's for me even harder than no choices at all.
Many of my friends wishes me that this is my year to have a boyfriend, and I felt somehow flattered and in the other hand it's kinda ironic in a way that they do concern about my love life healthy life hahaha...
It is, it has been such a long time I never had any sparks in LOVE...I have no idea why...I surely no idea why...
One time on a New Year's Eve dinner with friends from Paris and a friend of mine here in Bali, they start to asked each other the question.."How long you've been guys together", my friend said "Eleven years", one couple said "Around fourteen years now" and other couple "Hmmmmm twenty years!"...and I, myself..."Zero", it is how wonderful to hear that some couple stay longer and longer together and again comparing to mine this is like "I never had any that long relationships...ever", now I am 35...getting into 36 years old...how much chances do I still get until I will have those long relationships?
God, hear my prayer...If I only have a short relationships please make it very long...or make it the happiest one in my life so there will be no regret...
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