the tiredness

I guess this is the peak of my mind...I guess I need to get off the roller coaster and re-boot my self...this is like unstoppable tiredness in mind.

Gosh, I have no idea why? I can't even cry...I guess I am experiencing again sort of panic in my heart...like here we go again...those ups and downs which I was thinking this is gonna be end this beginning of the year...

I remember when I was in Jakarta 3 years ago when I was saying to myself that I am tired to fall to the wrong situation...dealing with some ignorant guy and so fort...that was the time when I was so happy that I can finally let it go all of my hopes to find the right one...now here ago again...everything crashed then it looks like I need to do it all over again which I hate so much...

I feel at the moment I need to re-boot myself...and let go all those bullshits...I will have to walk by myself again for another only God knows hundreds or even thousands miles away...


I will be fine of my own...I want to take it back the glory of being alone...I need to get back to it...even though still until now I feel so bloody moody...


I am tired...really tired...