the closure

I think I am a guy who always need a closure...otherwise I cannot sleep for the rest of my life...ah well kind of drama-me but that is true...

I guess the closure in any kind of relationship for me it's important, the closure when you are broke up with him or even the closure when you are just having a new relationship...closure might be just those four letter word or those "we are thru" kinda phrase when you are broke up with someone...phewww...almost six years ago I broke up with this guy, I was so falling in love with him...until those dreams just having a sudden end...yeap no closure at all (for me saying goodbye by e-mail that wasn't a closure at all)...and now haunting me like forever..like some undone business..ah damn...

I just came back from a great holiday, the main purpose having a holiday with this guy I called Mr.Big is to get to know each other, it was great even almost parfait...I just loved it...but then again there was no closure about the relationship...like are we now boyfriends? why there was no "I love you" kinda phrase or in dramatic ways : kneeling and "Would you be my boyfriend?" kinda thing hahaha...again no closure and this is like my mind keep going everywhere now...

Do we really need those "I love you and will you be my boyfriend" to define the relationship or just me the guy who want everything with closure?