"Loosen up..think like a top!"
That was my bestfriend replying my blah blah blah one night through blackberry messenger...yeah right it is still about Mr. Big and me...
Hell that was right...sometimes as a bottom guy we didn't really speak up what's in our mind as we are too afraid of losing...anything that makes you happy kinda act...I guess I do not speak up my mind when it comes to Mr.Big, just like waiting for him to give those words...then came across my mind about speaking up my mind...I said I MISS YOU...then I didn't care about what kinda reaction or reply that he is going to send me back...If I miss him then I will say it and if I love him I will also speak up...then I did...then I feel so much (again lighter!)...
After this kinda heavy weight conversation with my bestfriend Ulis...me my friend Boni decided to hangout at Bali Joe...and I feel I have this power being as a lady on TOP hahahah...I was like daring...like don's care about things...I speak up my mind...and be an ignorant bitch...then I felt so much fun...fun as I feel powerful as a bottom guy...hahahah...
Gosh...Indeed I have to think like a TOP and act still like a BOTTOM...just take it or leave it...perhaps next I will tell him that I LOVE him...I don't care with his reply..I will just speak up whatever in my mind...ARE WE BOYFRIENDS?
xoxo
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